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Krishna does not accept the worship of those who proudly want to become Krishna’s devotees but don’t want to serve Radharani.
Amar Prabhura Prabhu
Sri Gauranga Sundara
ei bada bharosa ami
chitte dhari nirantara
(Chaitanya Bhagavata, Adi Khanda 1.17.153)
Such a beautiful mood, the ultimate mood expressed by Vrindavan Das Thakura, the only mood, the only way to achieve Gaur Radha Krishna. This mood of accepting Nityanand as our immediate master, as a prabhu, as everything. “Amhaar Prabhura Prabhu” and accepting Gauranga as master of Nityananda Prabhu. The master of my master is Gauranga Sundar. This is what Vrindavan Das Thakura is saying literally. I will worship Gauranga through the eyes of my master, Nityananda Prabhu, through the instructions, through the order, through the service, through the bhakti of my Nityananda prabhu.
This is my firm determination. I am fully determined and constantly I will never forget this truth that Nityananda has given me everything. Anda Nityanand will always remain my first master, my whole life and soul. Just like the gopis and the manjaris, they served Radha in such a wonderful way that Krishna comes running for them and the manjaris tell him, “No Krishna, if you want our association you have to please Radharani, then we will also please you, we will serve you with Radharani, not alone. We will serve you as the master of Radharani, as a beloved of Radharani, we will not serve you directly, as our beloved”. That is the same mood of Vrindavan Das Thakura. “Amar prabhura prabhu sri Gauranga Sundara”. When I hold the lotus feet of Nityananda in my hands, then I can see that Nityananda is actually remembering his master Gauranga Mahaprabhu. So that way, I will always be always connected with Gauranga Mahaprabhu. This Nityananda can give me Gaura Sundar in my heart. If Nityananda comes in my heart, then Gaura Sundar cannot remain away.
**Panihati Raghav was worshipping Nityananda and Gauranga, came in unmanifested form to see Nityananda’s worship. Some say that Nityananda should not be worshipped alone but Raghav was worshipping him alone and Gauranga was so pleased that came himself in unmanifested form. So the wholehearted, one pointed worship of Nityananda is actually the way to please Gauranga Mahaprabhu and that is how Gauranga Mahaprabhu will accept the servant of Nityananda, but he may not accept his direct servant. Like **“ek baar Nityananda bole manushya janma dhari, Gauranga Prakaash”. If once one soul says, that I am Nityananda das, I accept Nityananda as everything, he is my first and foremost lord who is giving me everything, then that soul will certainly see Gauranga and RadhaKrishna face to face in this very life. Just once we have to say this. We have to surrender and not leave Nityananda, “Nirantara”, always one should be in this consciousness. “Amar Prabhura Prabhu” this is very important. “Amhaara” means My Master. My master is Nityananda and Nityananda’s master is Gauranga. Gauranga is the master of all. Amhaara means MY. I am proud and its not like I feel something miserable, because I am not accepting Gauranga as my direct master. No, I am proud of it. “Eyi bada bharosa”. Bharosa means “thats my only hope”. “Chittedhari nirantar”. I always keep this remembrance and understanding in my heart that Nityananda prabhu will remain my immediate master, my whole and sole my life and soul. He will be there. And along with him I will serve GauraSundar. I being under his guidance.
So that is the mood that the gopis told Krishna, that we will serve you only through the service of Radharani. Because Radharani’s service is the higher than your service and you also want us to serve Radharani. So Gauranga also wants us to serve Nityananda more than himself. That’s why Vrindavan Das Thakura is saying that “nirantara” means even after I attain Gauranga and Radha Krishna by the mercy of Nityananda, which he has given to everyone, including the Goswamis and everyone and he is always thinking of how to unite us and how to take us into both the lilas, give us our forms in Nityananda and Gauranga lila. So he is the one who will ultimately bring us, he is there in all the 5 Rasas i.e Ananga Manjari in Madhurya, Balaram in Sakhya, again in Baladev as elder brother as Vatsalya and then Daasya, when he expands himself as the servants of Krishna and then Shanta, He is the dham. Both the dhams. Not only one dham but both the dhams. So him and only him can give us our master and grandmaster. Master is Nityananda and grandmaster is Gauranga. This is real.
That means that we are humble. One who is proud, will want to directly connect themselves to Gauranga and RadhaKrishna. Those who are proud want to become Krishna Bhaktas but they don’t want to serve Radharani, but Krishna does accept that worship. **“Radha bhajane na Krishna bhajan akaaran gela”. This is useless. So without Nityananda bhakti, Gauranga bhakti is useless. Same way. Its the same. “Amara Prabhura Prabhu” that’s why Vrindavan Das Thakura says “ayi bada bharosa chitte”, I have found this only way to please Gauranga to touch the heart of Gauranga is to accept Nityananda as my Life and Soul, as my master. **“Nityananda vinaa nahi jaane aan”. So many acharyas they did not know anything except Nityananda and that does not mean they lost Gauranga. No, they were Gauranga’s most dearmost because they were remembering Gauranga through the heart of Nityananda, which is a playgound of Gauranga’s pastimes and they were remembering Nityananda through his heart, through his serving their master Nityananda. This is the secrets of all secrets of all secrets of all secrets..
“O Gauranga, remember me as Nityananda Das”, that is my only prayer.
Transcription service by Radhabhav das.